exhausted, in more ways than one.


i am exhausted.  emotionally, physically, mentally. 

i have a lot of work this semester and though it’s great to keep busy…i just feel so worn down.  i’m irritable and miserable.  i’m in a sort of “funk” i guess, for lack of a better word.  this deployment is ending slowly, as is my senior year, and i have no idea what i’ll be doing for the rest of my life or if i’ll ever get a job or make enough money to survive.  i’m so worried about money.  i always worry about money.

i just want to crawl into bed and have a good cry…i haven’t had one in awhile and i’m probably due. 

i know i sound all depressed and lame…i know how much that sucks, believe me.  and i’m sure i’ll feel fine in a week or two.  i’m just not doing well right now.

on the upside of things…R told me on the phone that he is due back a week earlier than we originally expected, which is glorious news.  he may even come to visit me at school if he can get some time off before leave.  might not happen, so i shouldn’t get my hopes up.

i just want to see my boy again.  i don’t think that’s too much to ask at this point, sigh.


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